I need some help finding a doctor….

When you are in my position, you try anything. So here I go, for what it’s worth, can anyone in Cairns recommend a bulk billing doctor who can help me with Fibromyalgia who will prescribe the only thing that has worked so far, opiod based painkillers, without being an arsehole about it ? I have tried other drugs, which they all want to push on you instead of opiods, and they have not worked, they have left me writhing in agony and unable to sleep.

Today I thought I had found that doctor, he even says on his blog that he is an authorised or whatever opiod prescribing doctor, yet when I went there, showed him I had a current course that I have been regularly prescribed for the condition of fibromyalgia, he then comes out all anti opiate based pain relief, and to be honest, he shouldn’t be a doctor for any type of medical condition, he is arrogant, and didn’t even take my blood pressure, even though I am a new patient who has hypertension !!!

I am at a lose end here with this, I have 14 days of Tramadol left, and now am struggling to find a doctor who will actually let me have some semblance of quality of life. I really fucking hate this shit. Yes, I am angry and sweary, which isn’t helping my fibromyalgia at all, but when you are faced with the fact that in 14 days time, you will be in a position where you will be in complete agony, and nobody seems to want to help, you’d be sweary¬† and angry too. I can’t afford to be floored completely by the pain, which will happen, I have a son to look after. I don’t understand why nobody seems to understand how bad this condition is. The agency responsible for disability pension doesn’t. Lot’s of doctors don’t. I really don’t know where to turn here. This is becoming a very real problem. Does anyone care ??

I just don’t know what to do. I guess I will end up at the emergency department of the local hospital in 2 weeks time, then what………..

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Outing to Yarrabah

Today, we went off on a pure “just drive and see where we end up” outing. Just Jack and myself. My Mum is unwell, so I figured that if we went out for a little bit, she could have some peace and quiet to rest.

After a breakfast of bacon and eggs, we headed off to Yarrabah, an Indigenous Community to the East of Cairns, on the other side of Trinity Inlet. It is a bit of a drive, I thought it was closer, but was so well worth it. The drive had us meandering through the sugarcane fields, and after the downpour we had yesterday from Tropical Cyclone Owen, a lot of the streams were flowing. This was the first time we went to Yarrabah, so didn’t know what to expect, and it was also Jack’s first time going to an Indigenous Community. There are certain things you need to observe when entering Indigenous communities, and you must have the utmost respect for the place and it’s people.

The drive took us up over the mountains, which was quite a climb up and over the range, but the whole thing was worth it. Below, is a photo overlooking the bay that fringes Yarrabah, who wouldn’t want to live in this slice of paradise ??

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We wandered on down from this amazing vantage point into the community below, and as we pulled up at the beachside, a lovely old Aboriginal lady in a wheelchair was having her morning wander around, and we had a little chat. She was an amazingly friendly and warm woman.

We then wandered onto the beach, where we discovered that 2 shipwrecks also inhabited the waters just off the beach. It was a popular photographic subject with both myself and Jack.

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Jack was trying to get the best angle.

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The western headland of the bay also was quite interesting and picturesque.

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We then decided to head back home, but took a detour before getting home to have lunch, which included a feast of Lychees we got at a roadside stall on our travels. Below, is the Western flank of Walsh’s Pyramid, with water streaming down some ephemeral waterfalls due to the heavy rain yesterday.

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We also happened across this colony of Fruit Bats, or Flying Foxes, which just so happens to be not far from our new home. I have been itching for a bit of an explore, but due to all the work we have needed to do, this has been the first proper opportunity.

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All the usual crap with fibromyalgia is happening still, and we still have tonnes more work to do, but it was nice to just kick back for a few hours, and start to explore our new home.

Andy.

Waiting

Life always seems to be about waiting. Waiting to go somewhere, do something, for someone or something. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Yep, that seems to be it.

This year, it has been a waiting game, waiting to move being the big one, now it’s done, it’s waiting for everything to be done so I can rest. I thought yesterday that I would rest, but it ended up that we went to do a simple trip to the nursery to get some extra plants for the screening fence we are doing, and it ended up at a shopping mall we hadn’t checked out yet, then Bunnings, and we eneded up finding another Op Shop, the best one we have found yet.

My rest day flew out the window, as we didn’t get back home until 2pm, then, I had to head out again at 3pm, as Mum found our new lounge suite, a beautiful cane 2 seat couch with 2 single seat chars, with yellow fabric on the cushions. I had to pick that up, before heading to the other side of Cairns to pick up a filing cabinet for myself at 4pm. Got home, totally spent. I could hardly get out of the car, let alone do anything else.

Today, we had planned to go and do our Christmas shopping, but instead I ended up spending the morning fitting a new door to Dads bathroom, one of those concertina style ones, so very fiddly, and also adjusted all his curtain rods as they were too low. Then, just because I have apparently turned into a masochist and love to basically kill myself, I hung the privacy screen on the verandah that Mum got the other day to stop a nosy neighbour, planted an orange tree I got from Bunnings yesterday, and mowed the lawns. I honestly don’t know how I am still operating. I hardly slept last night, and have been in agony for days, but last night was the worst. Bloody fibromyalgia !!!

Tomorrow’s plans have had a huge re-adjustment too, as we now have the ex tropical cyclone that crossed here on Sunday potentially going to revisit, this time as a a Category 2 or 3 cyclone, so we are going to try and do a clean up of the yard, removing the last of the rubbish from the previous owners of the property, as well as the last few cardboard boxes we had stuff packed in for the move. It will be a busy day of getting ready for a cyclone. At least life isn’t boring !!!

So now, we are waiting for a Cyclone. They reckon it will be here around Friday or Saturday, so only a couple of days to prepare. We knew that moving back to the tropics would mean we would get severe tropical weather, but I guess we had hoped that it might have been in the new year, rather than just 3 weeks after we arrived !!! Anyhow, this isn’t the first cyclone we have faced, we went through a category 5 in Western Australia a few years ago, but it will be the first for Jack, and it certainly won’t be the last in this part of the world, as most years cyclones affect some part of the coastline in this part of Queensland.

I am about to check out the latest update from the Bureau of Meteorology before going to bed. It’s going to be an interesting next few days, so I hope I get some sleep tonight.

Goodnight.

Andy.

We have finally moved !!!!

It is a warm, balmy night as I write this from the tropical north of Queensland !! We have now been living in Gordonvale, just south of Cairns, for just over a week. I am loving it here !!!

Finally, we don’t have to worry about running into Jack’s deranged mother when we go down the street, which is still sinking in for me, as are the realities that we are now living in such a magnificent part of Australia. Jack was conceived only 40 minutes down the road from where we now live, we passed through there last Tuesday, just before we set eyes on our new home, which, is just fantastic.

Dad has his own little granny flat, which since about 2pm today, is all renovated to the point of satisfaction, I helped him fit his new shower curtain rail and put up the last of his curtain rods. The electricians were in there yesterday, as the oven and stove weren’t wired, and a light needed to be shifted, the bill hasn’t come yet for that, so that should be fun to see !!!

We’ve replaced door locks, hung curtains, fitted doors to the linen closet, acquired furniture, some of which was flat pack stuff, which took hours to assemble due to the quantity we bought, unpacked a tonne of boxes, flattened the boxes and taken them to the recycling centre, done about half a dozen trips to Bunnings for supplies to renovate, and it’s just been go, go, go. At 6am tomorrow, the solar panel installers are coming to start that off, we will have the last of our things from the last house delivered on Friday, as they were delayed by the fires and heat wave Queensland has been experiencing, on Tuesday next week we have air-conditioning being fitted to 3 bedrooms along with Window Tint on all the front windows, and then on Wednesday, the built in wardrobes will arrive and be installed in both Jack and my rooms.

It feels like we are getting back to some semblance of normality, although there is a heap more to do, both Mum and myself have done the bulk of what has been needed to be done, and hopefully by the end of next week, we will have most of the urgent tasks done. We are taking a day off on Saturday to go up the Atherton Tablelands to go to some markets, and to just have a break from it all.

The fibromyalgia has been a bit crazy, it’s been kicking in with pain for weeks, and the last few days both Mum and myself have been battling a huge amount of fatigue. We are pushing ourselves beyond our limits to get things sorted out, so we can just fall in a heap as soon as possible once it is all done.

I finally got out and mowed the grass today, this place has been neglected both inside and out for a long time, luckily it’s dry right now, so everything is not growing, but it still needed a tidy. We have 2 compost bins, both have a lot of grass clippings in them after today’s effort, but they should start to rot down pretty quickly in this climate. There is also a lot of other junk that needs to be sorted out, like a pile of rotten timber, steel stakes and bricks that need sorting through to see what is of use and what needs to go to the dump. Down beside the shed are some dilapidated shade cloth screens that have usable stuff in them, but are no longer good for their original purpose, so when I get a chance, I will go out, pull them apart, and reuse what can be reused. There is also an old chicken run and coop, which need to be pulled down, the fence will be reused for another project, the coop itself has a concrete floor, and the roof needs repair, but we are thinking of using it as an undercover storage space once it is repaired.

So as you can see, there is a lot to do, but we are getting it done. Jack won’t be back to school this year, there is only just over 2 weeks of the school year left, so we will enroll him for next year, and he gets an extended Christmas break. He will be repeating grade 2 next year anyhow, as his literacy isn’t up to scratch, which is letting him down when it is required in other learning areas. He seems to be relishing the nice warm climate, and is really enjoying himself. Because we are so busy, he is not getting as much attention from us as we would like, but he understands, and when he sees things getting better in the house every day, he knows that it won’t be long before we will be able to give him as much attention as he desires.

It’s very pleasant with the new living arrangements, Jack, Mum and myself having our own lives in the big house, and Dad doing his own thing in his own space. The house is so much more settled without the constant bickering and rude behaviour from him. It’s like we are all free.

Anyhow, I am rambling away, there is so much to tell, but for now, I must retire to my bed, I am barely awake, and it is now nearly 10pm, with 6am not too far away. Goodight all.